On depression and spikiness.

Evil Penguin 042: sup?
AkashaReincarnat: Am being therapist again, but so not up to it..
Evil Penguin 042: eep...
Evil Penguin 042: i'd ask to whom but..eh. well whatever
AkashaReincarnat: matt
Evil Penguin 042: therapist. therapists are interesting.
Evil Penguin 042: i see. cool.
Evil Penguin 042: how are you doing?
AkashaReincarnat: i'm not being a very good therapist. just listening to him rant and going "oh my god, poor child..." except I don't want to type that as it sounds patronizing.
Evil Penguin 042: *hugs*
Evil Penguin 042: yeah
Evil Penguin 042: well..
Evil Penguin 042: sometimes people just need someone to listen to them.
AkashaReincarnat: To tell the truth, what Pam's doing to Matt reminds me of the entire six years of our being friends, except infused with romance which makes it that much worse, compressed into a ridiculously short span of time, and put on a loop--repeated every few days or weeks or hours.
AkashaReincarnat: I don't know how the child is still alive.
Evil Penguin 042: eeep? i don't know too much about you guys 6 yrs ago
Evil Penguin 042: altho i know there was a while where you guys 'broke up' persay
AkashaReincarnat: Meet, become best friends, she randomly cuts me off, silence, an email war, more silence, meeting again, very quickly becomeing friends again.
Evil Penguin 042: eeg.
AkashaReincarnat: Luckily for me, that whole cycle has only happened once.
Evil Penguin 042: yeah
Evil Penguin 042: i feel bad for matt.
AkashaReincarnat: me too
Evil Penguin 042: well, for all involved. but definitely matt.
AkashaReincarnat: most definitely.
Evil Penguin 042: these ljs aren't necessarily good for us
Evil Penguin 042: people are saying how they really feel. and then can really affect other people.
AkashaReincarnat: if we didn't have 'em, we'd be all lying to each other more than we are.
Evil Penguin 042: honesty is good, but...
Evil Penguin 042: in my lj i don't ever talk about other people. pretty much.
Evil Penguin 042: i talk about myself plenty
Evil Penguin 042: but...
Evil Penguin 042: its just people can get hurt when emotions are so..out there
AkashaReincarnat: I know they can. I try not to offend anyone... but misconceptions end up with people getting sad and offended as well...
Evil Penguin 042: yeah
Evil Penguin 042: we're a very intense group of people
Evil Penguin 042: i think compared to the average teenager we have many more emotional issues
Evil Penguin 042: altho all teenagers do have many emotional issues
AkashaReincarnat: Probably
Evil Penguin 042: well. we broadcast.
Evil Penguin 042: a lot.
AkashaReincarnat: Yes. But I think we take everyhting really seriously..
AkashaReincarnat: ...and we're all freinds with the same people we're having Emotional Problems with.
Evil Penguin 042: indeed.
Evil Penguin 042: well in terms of social stuff, i try not to take stuff too seriously.
Evil Penguin 042: not that it works.
AkashaReincarnat: And yeah, we broadcast. And hide. And hide badly.
Evil Penguin 042: but the attempt is there
Evil Penguin 042: yes indeed


I'm bloody worried about Matt... I have no idea what the hell is going to happen... but Jesus Christ, I'm worried about everybody, and seriously, when people start attaching themselves to other people it's so easy to get so screwed up in the head, and I'm by now practically addicted to my friends, so being off the Net which is the primary way we communicate damned hurts, and when I do get on I want to be everyone's therapist or shoulder to cry on, but I can't act properly sympathetic over AIM when I'm just sitting there staring at the screen going "God Almighty..."

And not only will people not make a big deal out of big things in front of other people, but people seem to be focusing on little details... Pam seems to have latched on to my random meaningless comment about Ben being "spiky" and apparently she told him and he's mentioned it in his bloody LJ. What's the freaking point?