I don't know why I'm revisiting the school year. But I am.
Tinuviel8994: how's the leperthing going?
AkashaReincarnat: I finisheded Leper Colony bios, but still need other people's.
AkashaReincarnat: Wanna see what I already have?
Tinuviel8994: Sure!
Tinuviel8994: Do I have a bio? *utterly self-centered and horrible*
AkashaReincarnat: Not quite yet. You shall.
AkashaReincarnat: Bios are short and kinda statistical.
Tinuviel8994: Sorry to ask. *^-^*
AkashaReincarnat: (Bugger, I sent it under my mother's name...)
Tinuviel8994: Eee.
AkashaReincarnat: For some reason, I decided to put everyone's age, LJ info, seniority, a little about looks, a little about personality, and whatever disorders and oddities they have.
Tinuviel8994: Fun!
AkashaReincarnat: What disorders/oddities/mental illnesses do you have that I shouldn't forget to mark down?
Tinuviel8994: ADD...
Tinuviel8994: depressive, self-hatred?
AkashaReincarnat: Okay. What else does you want to go in your bio?
Tinuviel8994: Uhm......writer, online friend, met Leper Colony people once in RL...
Tinuviel8994: Hey, I gave you your LJ code! ...forgot about that.....
AkashaReincarnat: I mention that in the text...
AkashaReincarnat: So far, for bio have this:
AkashaReincarnat: "Thalia Weaver: Internet friend of many of the Colony, Tolkien snob. Thirteen-year-old goodfic writer; hyper and friendly disposition, but at times afflicted with depression and self-hatred. ADD. LiveJournal (tinuviel8994) created March 3. Honorary Leper since some time in May."
AkashaReincarnat: (I think we're the only Tolkien snobs here...)
Tinuviel8994: Teehee.
AkashaReincarnat: My entry for Mrs Jacoby runs as such: "Mrs. Jacoby: Mother of Kristoph and Matt, and officially the coolest parent ever. Not afraid to call a spade a spade, but more likely to call it a diggy gardeny shovel kinda thing. Doesn't believe in curfews; go her!"
AkashaReincarnat: *writes about April 28th, because it's always fun to write about*
Tinuviel8994: What happend on that day>
Tinuviel8994: *?
Tinuviel8994: *happened
AkashaReincarnat: That was the day stuff got so fucked up I went and talked to Matt.
AkashaReincarnat: "April 28 was the day back from April vacation. I remember it as both one of the worst and one of the most beneficial days of my life. It certainly contained one of the most socially awkward moments of my life: at the end of school the school day, Eddy and I were standing in front of her locker, talking as usual.
Tinuviel8994: dun dun DUN!
AkashaReincarnat: "Beky usually joins us there before we go outside; today was no different. So Beky walks down the hall towards us, deep in a conversation with Matt, who apparently did not realize where she was headed. As soon as Beky broke from the conversation enough to greet Eddy and myself, Matt began to walk away, before making sure he knew which direction it made more sense to walk in. This ended up in him walking down the hallway, and having to double back and go up the hallway towards the front of the building, evidently just wanting to get away from us.
AkashaReincarnat: "It was painful to watch, and, as was happening more and more often, made me want to give him a hug, which there was no way I was capable of doing in real life."
AkashaReincarnat: And then one of my LJ entries.
AkashaReincarnat: o.O... Did you know that apparently "paralyzingly" is not a word?
Tinuviel8994: It.......isn't?
Tinuviel8994: But I use it a lot!
AkashaReincarnat: Microsoft Word says it isn't. It's got alittle red underline and when you click it just says "paralyzing".
AkashaReincarnat: Me too! I mean, it's a fricking word. But technically, there apparently isn't an adjective form of "paralyzing".
Tinuviel8994: ...weird.
AkashaReincarnat: Very.
Tinuviel8994: whatchadoin', huh, huh?
AkashaReincarnat: same thing I been doing all evening.
Tinuviel8994: which is?
AkashaReincarnat: Writings from the Leper Colony
Tinuviel8994: Ahhhhhh.
AkashaReincarnat: still on the 28 april. was a big day for me.
Tinuviel8994: I think it's absolutely awesomely spiffy.
AkashaReincarnat: sankyu.
AkashaReincarnat: *ego swells*
Tinuviel8994: ^_^
AkashaReincarnat: yay, we are good for each other's egos today.
Tinuviel8994: ^_^ 'ndeed.
Tinuviel8994: Are you biased against poemreading?
AkashaReincarnat: No.
Tinuviel8994: May I shamelessplug a poem on you?
AkashaReincarnat: Okay.
Tinuviel8994:
http://www.fictionpress.com/read.php?storyid=1377984 ...shamelessplug should be a verb.
AkashaReincarnat: It should. Let's make it one.
Tinuviel8994: Shamelessplugging, shamelessplugged, have shamelessplugged, will shamelessplug, had shamelessplugged.
AkashaReincarnat: I shamelessplug, you shamelessplug, he shamelessplugs, she shamelessplugs, it shamelessplugs, we shamelessplug, they shamelessplug.
Tinuviel8994: ^_^
Tinuviel8994: Yep!
AkashaReincarnat: o.o goooood poem.
Tinuviel8994: :-D
AkashaReincarnat: has that creepiness that makes it a poetic poem and not just an attempt at poetry poem.
Tinuviel8994: creepiness?
AkashaReincarnat: Good poetry, to me, feels a level removed from real life. Real life is like "That is a table. And that's a computer." and poetry sort of dances around that.
AkashaReincarnat: or should. good poetry does.
Tinuviel8994: Yey. ^_^
AkashaReincarnat: i dunno if that makes sense; the thought in my mind's not really in English... it's sort of a feel.
Tinuviel8994: I think this is one of the best poems I've ever written, if I'm not boring you forcing you to read them.
AkashaReincarnat: o.O That is quite spiffy.
Tinuviel8994: Ennit?
AkashaReincarnat: 'Tis.
Tinuviel8994: I like the first 3 lines.
AkashaReincarnat: me too.
Tinuviel8994: I write manymany poemtry.
Tinuviel8994: ...I'm talking weird.
AkashaReincarnat: Yiss you ish.
Tinuviel8994: Eeesfun.
AkashaReincarnat: Yiss, ish funfun.
Tinuviel8994: XD
AkashaReincarnat: ^____^
AkashaReincarnat: Feeling mildly guilty documenting all my friend's insanities...
AkashaReincarnat: But oh well.
Tinuviel8994: Mmm.
AkashaReincarnat: I mean, some of them went really insane...
AkashaReincarnat: "I drove a dagger through my flesh to cut away the pain, now bleeding from my torn-out heart I laugh at those still sane. I die eternal, never moving on, for mine is the terrible, cold power of the ghost." -Matt's AIM profile (from 28 april)
Tinuviel8994: Eeee......
AkashaReincarnat: Not flattering.
Tinuviel8994: ...no...
AkashaReincarnat: *shudders* I don't know why I'm dwelling on this time period today. I mean, it was NOT FUN in every way concieveable. I had both acute loneliness and depression, AND intense social problems.
AkashaReincarnat: I almost think it's because that's all gone away. Then it was too tight-knit, two people not on speaking terms was so incredibly painful... but now it's too loose. We're all physically scattered about, separated, but the Leper Colony is falling apart.
Tinuviel8994: I was suicidal for awhile this year......
Tinuviel8994: It's falling apart?
AkashaReincarnat: Eep. *hugses* I'm glad you didn't kill yourself.
AkashaReincarnat: Yeah. It is.
AkashaReincarnat: There's been no crowd at the Jacobyhouse since graduation.
Tinuviel8994: ;_;
AkashaReincarnat: Pam's not speaking to Ben, Matt, or (at the moment) myself.
AkashaReincarnat: Chris isn't talking to me either, for the most part.
AkashaReincarnat: A tthe moment, none of them are here.
AkashaReincarnat: Pat's just... gone. Not coming back for a long time.
AkashaReincarnat: *sigh* It sucks.
Tinuviel8994: WHY are notspeaking?
AkashaReincarnat: Pam and Ben have decided they detest each other, now, because of massive weeks-long aftermath of a four-day relationship they had.
AkashaReincarnat: Matt and I annoy her.
Tinuviel8994: But I thought you guys were friends......
AkashaReincarnat: Matt she finds really annoying, now. There's nothing to pity now that he's happy, so he just... grates on her nerves, I guess.
Tinuviel8994: Oh, Matt says he doesn't like Pam anymore at all.
Tinuviel8994: I think the feeling's mutual.
AkashaReincarnat: Yeah, she annoys him s well.
AkashaReincarnat: Pam is jealous of me and Matt. Also, she made the mistake of trying to talk to me when I was in a linguistic fit... and not just talk, but (a) told me I should be doing something else and (b) tried to get me to explain what I was saying. So I got fed up 'cos I had no idea why I was saying whatever I was saying, and ended up sending her a bunch of insults in Elvish.
Tinuviel8994: ><
AkashaReincarnat: ANd then she tried to rationalize why I shouldnt' be doing that and why she doesn't care. I simply could not comprehend it, so she got mad at me.
Tinuviel8994: ;_; ...but that's not the basis of killing a friendship is it>
Tinuviel8994: *?
AkashaReincarnat: No, it's not. It's not dead.
AkashaReincarnat: It's just sort of at the moment not as close as it was when she spent three periods every day constantly talking to me.
Tinuviel8994: ...whew...
Tinuviel8994: g2g.
AkashaReincarnat: "This most horrific of days did have one major social-life-changing benefit: it made me talk to Matt. Yes, made me. I simply couldn't in good conscience put it off any longer. So once the morbid away message went down, I did the only thing I could conceivably do-ordered Beky not to let me chicken out, and Instant Messaged him a hug."
AkashaReincarnat: Okay. *hugses* Bye!
Tinuviel8994: *wuvses* Email me newprogress, mkay?
Tinuviel8994: ::hugglewuv::
AkashaReincarnat: Okayness.
AkashaReincarnat: *hugglewuvs back*
Tinuviel8994 signed off at 11:41:32 PM.
I have over six pages and I'm still on the bloody end of April...
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