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So these past couple weeks I've been having some pretty weird dreams that have me waking up already swamped with all sorts of interesting negative feelings (which is just how I need to be starting my days these days), and oddly enough, most of them do not involve my teeth falling out or apart.
I had one a few weeks ago where my teeth didn't fit in my mouth properly so I couldn't really talk or close my mouth all the way. That induced considerable feelings of panic and self-consciousness, or maybe that's just my normal state these days.
I also had a dream where a certain person who I seem to have given up trying to talk to, for various reasons, and who also seems to have given up trying to talk to me, IMed me and, in a very casual manner, asked me if I would please stop attempting to contact him, thankyouverymuch, it was getting annoying. Not very subtle: I'm upset over losing his friendship, I have issues with fear of being abandoned by friends, and apparently a particular incident in my childhood that I had only credited with augmenting my distrust and dislike of email and the Internet in general has also had a larger hand in shaping my abandonment issues than I had ever really admitted to myself. At any rate, I woke up from this one gasping for breath and filled with such a sense of overwhelming devastation that I didn't actually get out of bed for another three hours.
On a weirder note, a few nights ago (this is after I got sick, so on a night I was having trouble breathing) I had a dream that I was really, really thirsty. I was drinking a glass of water, but although I could see the water in the glass and whoever was around (I don't remember) kept assuring me that the glass had water in it, I only got the very faintest sensation of actually drinking anything. It was like drinking air: it was just nowhere near cold or wet or heavy enough to actually be water. Whoever was explaining things kept telling me that it really was water, it had just been scientifically played around with somehow (don't ask, I don't remember why they'd do that), but it was in fact rehydrating me. But I still felt thirsty because I couldn't actually feel myself drinking anything, and started to panic, feeling suffocated and with that sort of claustrophobic feeling that I was never going to get out of the situation. Eventually I woke up, since I actually couldn't breathe. I'm still deciding if this dream has more to do with being physically unable to breathe, or with feeling trapped in less-than-fulfilling situations in life at the moment.
Meh, I had more but I can't remember them at the moment. At this rate, I'll have more sooner rather than later, and you can all see how incredibly paranoid and insecure my subconscious is these days.
Anyway. I have ridiculous loads of Logic homework to do. >.> G'night.
I had one a few weeks ago where my teeth didn't fit in my mouth properly so I couldn't really talk or close my mouth all the way. That induced considerable feelings of panic and self-consciousness, or maybe that's just my normal state these days.
I also had a dream where a certain person who I seem to have given up trying to talk to, for various reasons, and who also seems to have given up trying to talk to me, IMed me and, in a very casual manner, asked me if I would please stop attempting to contact him, thankyouverymuch, it was getting annoying. Not very subtle: I'm upset over losing his friendship, I have issues with fear of being abandoned by friends, and apparently a particular incident in my childhood that I had only credited with augmenting my distrust and dislike of email and the Internet in general has also had a larger hand in shaping my abandonment issues than I had ever really admitted to myself. At any rate, I woke up from this one gasping for breath and filled with such a sense of overwhelming devastation that I didn't actually get out of bed for another three hours.
On a weirder note, a few nights ago (this is after I got sick, so on a night I was having trouble breathing) I had a dream that I was really, really thirsty. I was drinking a glass of water, but although I could see the water in the glass and whoever was around (I don't remember) kept assuring me that the glass had water in it, I only got the very faintest sensation of actually drinking anything. It was like drinking air: it was just nowhere near cold or wet or heavy enough to actually be water. Whoever was explaining things kept telling me that it really was water, it had just been scientifically played around with somehow (don't ask, I don't remember why they'd do that), but it was in fact rehydrating me. But I still felt thirsty because I couldn't actually feel myself drinking anything, and started to panic, feeling suffocated and with that sort of claustrophobic feeling that I was never going to get out of the situation. Eventually I woke up, since I actually couldn't breathe. I'm still deciding if this dream has more to do with being physically unable to breathe, or with feeling trapped in less-than-fulfilling situations in life at the moment.
Meh, I had more but I can't remember them at the moment. At this rate, I'll have more sooner rather than later, and you can all see how incredibly paranoid and insecure my subconscious is these days.
Anyway. I have ridiculous loads of Logic homework to do. >.> G'night.
